have you ever feel like piss off?
you were thrown away from the circle and no one to catch
even the person you thought could be the one who clear all ur tears..
mungkin ini kekecewaan.
disaat kita teramat membutuhkan, tapi ga ada orang.
yang ada justru 'dibutuhkan'
its nice to be needed
tapi kita cuma manusia biasa yg gabisa hidup sendiri...
dibutuhin gak berarti engga butuh..
all I wanna do is scream it out on your face,
"where were you when I needed the most?"
to everyone, for said "I'm your bestfriend" --fuck with it.
no one ever nice... but Jesus do
oh God if only you could appear in my dream and talk to me..
I need U to be here, to be real, next beside me
kalo terlalu impossible, diri ini aja yang menuju ke surga..
semuanya, rela kok ditinggal demi bisa ngedapetin tempat itu
lagipula, for who could ever feel losing me...
kata orang, Tuhan manggil orang2 yg udah baik
supaya bisa berada disampingNya.
berarti harus banyak2 ngelakuin kebaikan, supaya tugas didunia ini cepet selesai :')
kalo udah selesai, bisa cepet2 berada di tempat yang nyaman itu.
sayang banget, gue bukan orang baik..
sayang banget gue ga pernah ngelakuin hal baik
itu artinya tugas gue masih belom selesai..masih banyak, masih panjang
sebenernya engga ngerti harus apa..
di saat sangat sangat teramat sangat membutuhkan,
orang yang bilang akan selalu ada, justru ga mau kalah
dengan berdalih lebih membutuhkan..
emangnya ada ukuran butuh? semua orang punya masalahnya sendiri2..
it always been hard for everyone to through alone.
I'd rather be alone than be with someone who only could said "I will always there for you"
I really really miss saying "I'm happy with you"
or saying that "he/she is the one of me"
or feeling comfort for awhile..
I miss laughing till I can stop
I miss the feeling have someone
I miss the feeling comfort by the simple words
I miss being hugged, kissed from the heart
I miss feeling safe
I miss how happy I am at was...
there ain't no other to comfort me
even you.
sorry for being really in disorder.
