seven

have you ever feel so guilty?
to your God, to your beloved mom?
to everyone who has expect you the best
but all you can give is just a beast side from you...
that's suck..
you feel like a muck in a face, waiting to be sweep away.
you feel like useless because you are guilty to your God...
He blessed you more than you deserve
you already regret it, regret your mistake,
then you feel guilty, regret, apologize in your pray,
but you do it again...and again..
and all you fear about is..
whether He want to forgive you for the same mistake?
for a thousand times you did again after you regret it in your pray?
whether He still want to protect you from something you fear about as human?
oh human..
why you are so naive.. why you are so weak..
yes, I am weak without God.. and I need is God, the most
but I was too afraid to ask His protection to me cause I was bad..
Oh God... I wish I knew what I supposed to do to not do it again..
I am really sorry, God.
Please don't go away from me.
please don't be tired to forgive me for my all mistake.
please don't be tired to teach me to be your kind child..
please always loving me, God...
I am really sorry...God
I am so weak..
I am sorry :"((((